I understand where you're coming from.
I'm originally from Lancaster County, PA. Amish country. Lots of farms. Small town. Beautiful surroundings. I grew up there and went to school there (thru 14th grade - trade school after HS)...
I live in Wilmignton now. In the city.
But when I go back out to visit my parents, it's so relaxing there. My body/mind gets refreshed.
Then I come back here. To the crime. To the noise and pollution. To the allergies!
Yeah, I understand what you are going through.